Decided on Indecision

I’m a week in with my decision not to decide, and God is already showing me what this means. What He is asking is something deeper than just waiting for Him. Now, I am moved to step back from forcing an outcome or seeking that outcome every day.

But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence. (Jeremiah‬ ‭17‬:‭7‬ ‭NLT‬‬)

I can honestly wear myself out trying to think through how something will turn out. Even if the thing I anticipate is a promise from God, it’s not healthy for me to spend my time in the present trying to think through what will happen in the future.

So, I find myself back at the heart of my Father in Heaven. Do I really trust Him to take control and work all things-my family, my relationships, my job-for my good? At the end of the day, that’s what He’s asking me to do. Trust him.

This won’t be an easy assignment for me. I’m an overachiever. In fact, I pride myself on thinking through “worst case scenarios.” It will take daily reminding to not think some things to death. I’m trying to make myself comfortable in this season of indecision as I wait on God to meet me here and do for me what I could never do for myself.

Today, at least, I’m resting in this indecision.

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